My day at school and how i doubt i can keep up long posts. This took me more that 1 hour!

GP: did planning for essay and in the period of time could not remember a word that starts with sub...sub...is it "substantiate"? Nope. Then on the way home, after a long fruitful CO performance and interaction with schoolmates, co mates and elderly, the word came to my mind, "subsidise"! I do not know why i keep on forgetting appropriate words. It must be because i rarely write. Lazy! Anyway, when i abruptly remembered the word, i could not help but let it slip out, in the end, causing an indian lady to look at me as if i did something bizarre. I swear i said it out softly and it was not intentional. Although it was softly muttered, the hard-won word resonated throughout my mind for quite a while--until i reached home.

Words that i forgot: something that surrounds the castle and creates the use of drawbridge and the term for the planning thing for the essay

On interaction: as per usual, success and failure. Feels that my best friend and i are drifting apart which is really depressing (but it is a fact of life! accept it! NOOOO!!!! She is my best friend!! It'll really hurt! = DILEMMA)

On studies: Geez, start on it already!

On performance: made many mistakes which should not have been made. Conciously, i am careful, unconciously i am careless. An epic battle results from said clashing conciousness and i could only watch the descent into frenzy in mute horror and morbid fascination. The last and supposedly to make the most memorable impression on the audience song was a disaster. Conductor overestimated us and we hadn't the needed amount of practice to clear the piece. The air was fresh outside the rooms we were in. Were they trying for suffocation? On the elderly in fact?

On making new acquaintances: an old lady spoke to me in english (i am impressed and amazed) and talked about how a person should speak out lest he or she is thought of as proud and deign everybody below them to speak to. She narrated to me her experiences without telling me much except her opinions instead of facts, clever really, and come off as friendly and intimidating. Me? I blink, speak, contribute a little and try to make myself seem as small and ignorant of the world as i could, which really did not require much effort because i am mostly that. Owey...

On innocence: why do people think that i am innocent? Is it because i am ignorant and unobservant? (How true though)

On stupidity: Why am i on this computer when i still have a towering pile of homework awaiting me? I better go now.